Ripping Away Masks of Squandered Time

I want to plan my life,
attempt to jump to the other side of the world.

In one fell swoop

Because I don’t think I could make it
If this leap falls short
and I have to attempt to climb up again

Feeling like I need to find some kind of direction in my life. Right now I'm a sitting duck who's doing just what he always said he wouldn't: dropped out of school and working full-time in a deadendjob. I want to get away but I don't know where an uneducated scrub can find work! And I can not ever attend WSU ever again. Ever. Because that would be too hard at this point. I need something new. Where can I go that's away from New England that won't cost me a lot of money? What can I do that will be memorable and exciting?

there is more to life than
sitting in a cube for forty hours a week
breathing re-ventilated air
working for the man.

• I am known to cavort around the steep precarious sidewalks of SF. Having friendly conversations with the 'so called shadows in the alleys' despite the bone-chilling fog and hilly topography for which San Francisco is so well known.
• I wear dark and mysterious masques!
• I am known to fall fast in love with big 11 dollar words.
• I am known for my rabid bandwagon jumping; espousing how manga robots are the new pirates are the new ninjas are the new astronauts are the new cowboys...
• I have developed an advanced epicurean sensual palate, instead of the girls I used to dig (who were so cheap you could pay a buck for a blowjob and get change!)

"His mouth teased hungrily across hers, and she wished the moment would never end… "

• I’m single. Perhaps I did fall for that little french girl. Who wouldn’t have? The Chick is Fuckin’ HALT. But it just didn’t work, and can anyone tell me what the raison d'etre is? Parce-que moi, je ne sais pas.

It does not matter.

Listen World, Speak to me.
Let your words whisper through the air

Like a quiet piece of mind in the untouchable deep blue sky

So near, yet so far.
Sweet nothings.
Tell me stories.
Ones I've never heard about.

Ask me questions without proven answers

Feed me facts that no scientist could describe.
Dance your flying ghosts just out of reach in the white ruffled clouds

So I can watch and listen

And learn

All obstacles eventually yield.
Lessons are always learned in the end. As much as I write down my goals and what I want to do, Change will happen. Summer school is in a month and a half, in July, which is a bittersweet month. But I cannot burden myself with that weight… like the stars in their courses must fly.

I keep forgetting life’s little ironies. When I was in school I wanted so badly to be out – now that I'm out I yearn to relive it again. And do it right this time!

Although lately I create all the time. Stories, comics, poems. I'm always reading. Whereas when I was in school it was only after I started stressing and spending 6-8 hours in the library that I could bring myself to study for finals.

It's time to go back to square one.
No more putting off school.
No more putting off life.

I'm in the process of becoming something different. Something that is not this that I am. I'm letting myself evolve. I'm tired of labels and definitions. I'm tired of categories, of being strictly this or that.

I'm going to start something today that might end up changing my life. Affirming my direction. I don't wish to talk about it too much, because I would really enjoy surprising everyone. And if I fail, then nobody really knows about it. Except what I've said here. In this paragraph.

one day,
I'll just disappear and
run towards the end of the earth,
without saying anything.

Profile Survey

Name:	The Masked Man
Birthdate:	June 11, 198X
Birthplace:	Geneva, Switzerland
Current Location:	San Jogbra, CA
Eye Color:	What?
Hair Color:	Ink Black
Height:	6 ft. 15 Inches!
Weight:	120 lbs.
Piercings:	a bone in my nose
Tatoos:	Koolio Tribal designs all over
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:	The second one please. Better make it to go, I'm in a hurry.
Overused Phraze:	What the Flying Hell!?!
FAVORITES
Food:	BBQ Chippies
Candy:	From a baby? Yes!
Number:	5
Color:	BLOOOODDDD REDD BWa ha ha ha
Animal:	Shrike
Drink:	Moosehead Beer
Alcohol Drink:	STUPID! I just frickin told you
Bagel:	WTF!
Letter:	Q.
Body Part on Opposite sex:	Boobs or Ass
This or That
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke with RUM
McDonalds or BurgerKing:	Corporate Tools
Strawberry or Watermelon:	Black Cherry
Hot tea or Ice tea:	Tea???? Bloody hell, is this site british
Chocolate or Vanilla	vanilla
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:	saki and espresso
Kiss or Hug:	Make Out Naked!
Dog or Cat:	That's a tough one. I want to have a big dog that can rip your head off, but I like it when I girl has a little pussy to pet. you know. HA HA
Rap or Punk:	Both man! RAWK ON! HARD!
Summer or Winter:	Winter.
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:	Either one, as long as it's scary. And funny. And has Hot grrlz in it
Love or Money:	this survey is long
YOUR...
Bedtime:	seriously, this survey is too long
Most Missed Memory:	I miss free time. When will this survey be done.
Best phyiscal feature:	My whole bod. I'm so hot the ladies can't keep away from me. THat's why I wear a mask.
First Thought Waking Up:	Boner!
Goal for this year:	Sleep with 3000 ladies. And meet the president. Then have him ask me to take over, and take over and make like a million dollars
Best Friends:	What the hell? Best friends? Is this s girl quiz?
Weakness:	Damn. Seriously. This is a girl quiz. I ain't got any damn weaknesses. Just look at me for Chrissake
Fears:	Being mauled by that bear in the parking lot.
Heritage:	IDK what the word means
Longest relationship:	8.2 minutes
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank:	Dude. I'm drinking now
Ever Smoked:	I'm smoking, too
Pot:	lol... HAVE YOU EVER POT? HEHEHE. douche.
Ever been Drunk:	Like all teh tim
Ever been beaten up:	heLL nO. wHATda I look like? Wimpy McWimperson. I'll beat you up, and your mother too!
Ever beaten someone up:	All the damn time! Jeez! Are we done yet?
Ever Shoplifted:	WHat? Why, was there a camera? I had that when I came in, I swear.
Ever Skinny Dipped:	Oh man yeah. This one time in Fiji with thes 2 or 3 gorgeous babe-asitas, we were like all naked and stuff.
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:	Have I ever kissed the opposite sex? WTF does that mean? I think you mean, "Have you ever kissed a person OF the opposite sex?" and of course, the answer is no. They kiss me. Lots of them do. There's too many for me to have time to kiss back.
Been Dumped Lately:	NO! I do the dumping. Get yer facts straightt
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color:	Pretty lookin
Favorite Hair Color:	Blonde. Or burnette, or rdehed. WTEVR works on you baby
Short or Long:	Short or long girl, or short or long hair? This survey suX!!!!!!!
Height:	OK, NVM... I'm gunna go get some pizza
Style:
Looks or Personality:
Hot or Cute
Drugs and Alcohol:
Muscular or Really Skinny:
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past:
What country do you want to Visit:	Ok I'm back
How do you want to Die:	Shot by a jealous husband
Been to the Mall Lately:	Oh yeah. I love to go and check out the fine ladies strolling by
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yeah man
Get along with your Parents:	Like a dog to it's firehydrant.
Health Freak:	Would be a good band name
Do you think your Attractive:	Hellz Ya. I set the damn standard.
Believe in Yourself:	I believe I can kick your ass.
Want to go to College:	Oh, had to go bringing that up din'tcha
Do you Smoke:	Do you ask the same questions over and over in a big cycle
Do you Drink:	DAMN! YES! SHUT UP ALREADY
Shower Daily:	WTF! No! Ladies like the Masked Musk.
Been in Love:	I think so... but I never got her name cus she didn't speak n e english, and I was too bizzy nuzzlin her big foreign titties to find out
Do you Sing:	I'm like Green Day, Neil Diamond, and the Italian Opera Guy, all rolled into one. Only Hotter!
Want to get Married:	What to you? No! You ask too many damm ?s
Do you want Children:	I want them to worship me and bring me their parents credit cards.
Have your future kids names planned out:	This is gay
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:	um, 12.
Hate anyone:	That 'Can you Hear me now' prick. And High School Teachers who are Assholes
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Invitation to the Game

Hello. Nice to meet you. My name is The Masked Man. This is my blog. It is my Masked Mind: Revealed!!!

There are several reoccuring features on my blog. I frequently steal from my vapid IM conversations, gripe about work, bemoan my status as a college drop-out, and write Haiku.
Wednesdays on DMM's Blog are special. Because every Wednesday is GAME DAY (YAY GAME DAY)

Each and not every Game day involves me creating a game, and you (my devoted and possibly aphasiac readers) playing the game! Yay. Each game is unique, and provide a unique creative outside-the-box victory solution that will EXPAND YOUR HORIZONS. Each game CAN be won.

Normally, I can do it all the time. Create games, that is. My golden glinting thoughts are ablaze with gametime innovations.

But we're coming up on the Vernal Soltice. And my Summer pastime is lying back in the cool grass, gathering and soaking up the solar sweetnesses... and when the sun shines, like shame, we cannot hide from it, so we slow.

Rather than wait for me to create, you can play along with haste.

THE WAITING GAME

Its like waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for paint to dry. The rules are thus, stand at the starting line and wait for the gun to fire. Along the way you will gain experience. Play hard enough and you may even reach the Top of the High Score Board!!

If I'm feeling more expeditious later, I'll post ANOTHER FUN GAME (YAY!!! FUN!! GAME!!!) but in the meantime, have fun waiting!

Many Warm Safeties,

-DMM
Actor, advocate, artist, model, writer, Scuba Diving Instructor

No Remorse for The Ravaged Casualties of Love

People SUCK. Seriously, they are stupid and they suck. I am filled with scalding rage!

OK scalding rage is a bit dramatic. Still. I'm mad. At people.
Why?

Because they whine about not being able to find someone to love. Grr.

I know what they say about believing in something and getting it, but that’s bullshit! I believe in CAKE and there’s no CAKE in front of me!

And another thing that grits my gristle: How come everytime I walk into a Bank somebody pulls the security alarm?
Maybe it has something to do with me wearing a mask but lots of people wear masks! Jim Carey. Elton John. Gerard Butler!

It's just frustrating is all. And a frustration that would easier to handle if I had a girlfriend.
I was going out with this one girl for a while. But then she called the cops on me.

"I’m not your girlfriend, Weirdo!" She yelled. And then once the cops showed up I had to explain to them that I had NOT just robbed a bank. I'd been to Fisherman's Wharf with my girlfriend. "Right Sweetie?"
"Leave me ALONE Creepwad!"

So I guess I'm single.

I Really want to go out on a date with Mari Naomi. When we break up I can be a major inspiration for her art. But even then I wouldn't complain. WE ALL get broken up with. We all ride the Bumpy road to love.

But at least I don't whine and moan about it.

SuppleSextusCinString: i’m lonely when i’m all alone
DaMasquedMan17: Buzzkill.

SuppleSextusCinString: i ge t sad when i'm lonely. and being around people jus makes it worse
DaMasquedMan17: Take me now God!

SuppleSextusCinString: dude! im never going to meet any one!

See??? That really wears on a guy! To hear that shit. And it seems like all of my friends are lovelorn lately. It's Spring PEOPLE! Pollinate 'n Shit! Get it ONNNN with your reproductin' Bad Selves!

Christ. Even Doug (my buddy Doug is a scientist) is feeling it. "I want to have sex, but I don't," he told me yesterday over brunch in Pac Heights. "For one, I don't know anybody. And if I did I don't want kids. So why have sex? There are no practical results."

“Listen Doug,” I pleaded, "sex is like physics. Just because it gives some practical results, that isn’t the reason we do it?”

"It isn’t?"

"No Doug. It isn't. Why do we do Physics Doug?"

"Because it continually provides new and fascinating insights into the slowly unravelling world that are beautiful, hopeful, and unparalleled."

"That’s right. Because it makes you happy. Just like Sex Doug. Sex Makes you Happy! Go have sex! Go! Go!"

"Can I finish my Danish?"

"NOOOO!"

A Fathom(able) Quote

Giving someone all your love
Is never an assurance that they'll love you back!
Don't expect love in return;
wait for it to grow in their heart
if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours

<----- I don't remember who wrote that. But whoever it was is my hero, and pretty much the manifestation of who I want to be.

Forsaken

In the Papagos tribe
after the world ends
we all become saguaro cacti
stretching our arms out to heaven,
in silent vulnerable prayer--
as it rapidly spins past on it's way...

All of us, prickly, but otherwise unguarded.
Waiting in the desert
for the sun to pluck us up
and carry us away.

It was 40 Years Ago Today...

Only, it really was "40 years ago today that Sgt. Pepper taught the band to play."

Sgt Pepper's is one of the most fundamental albums in modern music. Some people say Pet Sounds by the Beach Boys was just as innovative. But I've never heard that record so I ADAMANTLY DISAGREE. But even if you don't like the Beatles, the fact remains that Sgt. Pepper's was one of the first studio-produced album. It was one of the first concept albums. (There is a common theme and order between tunes that lead into each other.) It was one of the early heavy uses of studio effects, including but not limited to: non-ping-pong use of stereo, use of reverb, multitrack mastering, non-player supporting , chance tape effects, overdubbing, multi-tracked voice choruses...

The Beatles later went on to do things like invent the tape flange effect, adopt and extend early forms of samplers and electronic music, and to look to influences and instrumentation outside of the normal scope of a standard "rock" guitar band.

You may or may not like the Beatles, but half of studio music recording techniques owe their heritage to those four boys from Liverpool locking themselves in a studio and pushing the limits of technology for this monumental.

Cross Carrying

Masked Man Goes to College ------------------------------ Cross Carrying